Sometimes, it is hard to explain how depression feels like, those who have not experienced it, find it hard to know what to say and what to do. Some forget that this can become someones daily life. For those who are going through this, don’t forget that you’re not alone, there are many hiding behind the walls that society has created for people like us.
Trigger Warning – Suicide.
Before you read this, please know I am in a much better place now. This was written a few months ago, when staying alive was a battle I fought daily. I wanted to share this to remind people that there are two sides to the story, suicide is something that fragments every part of our being into believing it is the only solution. Right at that moment, it sure doesn’t feel like there is another answer.
This poem was written on the couch of a friend’s in Wellington, having pushed away yet another friend the night before, I realised fear is the controlling emotion in my relationships. So this is for all the friends I have scared away, the ones I distance myself from and those who I do not let in too close.
It comes in waves, like a tsunami, destroying everything in its way.
Scared. Controlled. Confused. Lost. Continue reading “Tsunami”
I am wired.
To give, to give, to give but not to take.
To think mistakes do not happen. All accidents are punished.
To love everything around me but not love myself. Continue reading “Instilled”